There were many times I question if it’s possible that there’s another personality lurking inside me that I’m not conscious about. Don’t worry, I’m not talking about anything really serious here. Just a random thought that popped up in my mind in this ridiculously warm evening and would love to share my thoughts here.
Now, have you ever wonder if there’s this other self within you? Are you aware of your other self?
We’ve seen this, or at least I did, in many anime. A character battling another personality that resides within himself or herself. Bleach has the best example. At the beginning of the series, Kurosaki Ichigo often find himself struggling to suppress his other self, widely known as Hollow Ichigo. Hollow Ichigo is the dark side of Kurosaki Ichigo, a part of him that never question the ethics behind each actions. Naruto apparently also has another personality within himself. A persona that holds grudges against every one he deems has wronged him.
If you’re not familiar with shounen titles, we have the recently completed series Persona 4: The Animation that saw the main characters tackled their Shadow Selves. These so-called shadows represent emotions that were not consciously acknowledged by the characters themselves. Or maybe even Dusk Maiden of Amnesia. Despite being a funny series, the supernatural/comedy series offered a good ground for us to attempt to understand why some of us chose to suppress sad emotions and memories. In fact, I think it’s rather normal for us to reject negative emotions and keep to ourselves only happy memories like Yuuko did.
All these four series I mentioned here share one similarity – none of the characters are aware of the other self until they meet them. They were all caught off guard by the revelation of their heavily suppressed negative emotions. When confronted, their natural instincts kicked in and chose to deny the presence of negative personalities within themselves. And this action resulted in serious consequences.
Back to my question – do you think you have another personality within yourself. If there’s such a thing within us, how would we confront our other self? The other self is often projected as dark and scary, but the truth is it can be just an innocent side of us that we chose to hide. When we find that, would we reject or embrace? If there’s such a thing within us, would it snap under intense pressure and do things outside normality? Again, I’m not suggesting anything violent, just a behaviour out of the ordinary. I know no doubt this is a scary thought. It’s as if we’re Dr. Jekyll shapeshifiting into Mr. Hyde, losing the ability to control our emotions.
After many ponderings, my answer to my own question is yes. All of us has another self hidden within us. Unfortunately though, I’m pretty sure you can’t find out what they are by entering the TV (don’t get this? Watch Persona 4). Heck, I don’t even know how to know. But when the time comes, we shall follow the examples of Narukami and friends – identify with and embrace our Shadow Selves. What do you say?
On a lighter note, have you ever wondered if there’s another you? Like the guys in Fairy Tail? Each person in Earth Land has another “clone” in Edolas. I’d love to see if I have a “clone” in Venus, but that’s entirely different thing altogether…