Was it high expectation? Or did I miss something? Because I didn’t enjoy watching Shigatsu wa Kimi no Uso as much as I thought I would be. When I stopped at episode four when the series just started airing, I thought the series would better watched consecutively rather than weekly. It has that sort of story development that will put me at the edge of my seat.
At least, that’s what I thought.
Instead of having a fun classical music ride with strong character development such as in Nodame Cantabile, I found myself getting agitated over the episodes in which they focus more on Tsubaki’s internal struggle with her feelings and jealousy of Kaori and Kousei. Rather than being entirely focus on the dynamics of Kaori and Kousei, I had to watch Tsubaki trying to sort out her feelings messily.
When the scene focused more on Kousei and Kaori though, things got a tiny bit better. Kousei struggled to overcome his psychological hindrance when it comes to playing piano. He was too consumed with guilt of his mother’s death that it affected his ability to do the only one thing he knows best. As he slowly breaks out from his past and embrace the future with Kaori’s little push, he emerged as a different kind of pianist, but still regarded as amazing nonetheless. By doing so with baby steps, it makes Kousei much more relatable.
The extra focus that has been put Tsubaki perhaps should have put on Kaori’s struggle with her illness. Not all anime viewers want to see a sappy anime, I suppose. However, by instilling deeper grief and despair, it creates much more a sense of urgency. And in extend, a much more unforgettable series.
I mean, I barely know how Kaori felt. She looked happy and upbeat for the most part. Being diagnosed with something so fatal, we as audience didn’t really know her feelings. She’d masked her true feelings for the most part of the series. Sure, she expressed despair, loss of will to live, motivation for attaining newfound dreams. But surely those aren’t enough to paint a proper picture of a person living with illness. Furthermore, these emotions are all delivered in a lightning speed there’s really no time to sink in.
Perhaps I shouldn’t set expectation. I was hoping for something to meet the standards Nodame Cantabile had set. I shouldn’t have done that. But the fact is I did. That probably was the biggest error coming into watching Shigatsu wa Kimi no Uso. I wonder, will my opinion be different had I not have those expectations…